Just a Girl

Hello blog world. I lied last week. I told you I'd blog before the weekend. Sorry. But here I am and its been less than a week since my last post so that has got to count for something. Tehe.

Anyways, the anniversary trip was fabulous. Better than the honeymoon (we really didn't like Jamaica). The hubs is still kickin ass in school; work is sllllooooooowwww but having Fridays off is truly priceless. Its a shame I waste them with doing. absolutely. nothing. most of the time.

Less than 2 months for Europe. Savin up for money.. at least trying to. We really want to buy a digital SLR before we leave.. so any suggestions would be awesome. We're probably going to be poor for a year because of this trip. But I know it is going to be sooo worth it.

On to the reason for posting..

Now.. as I'm about 2.5 months away from my 26th birthday I find myself getting old. Not old old, but everyone is married or getting married, has kids or are trying to have kids. The cellulite is starting to become more pronounced, the skin is starting to wrinkle, and my memory is already starting to fade. As I subscribe to 4 fashion/beauty mags (Marie Clair, Elle, InStyle and Cosmo) I find myself wanting to experiment with fashion, makeup and hair before I get too old and it becomes inappropriate. (NOTICE: for my mature readers, please do not take offense to my use of the word "old", its just a lot easier to type than decrepit ;) Unfortunately, I did not have the most feminine upbringing. My mom didn't really show me much with hair and makeup so I'm not very good at it and now that I'm in my 20s I almost feel ashamed to have to ask how to do it properly. But since I love you guys, I am going to ask you. If you ever want to have a makeup/hair/clothes party, please think of me. I would love to learn new hairstyles, new makeup techniques and some fashion advice. Sidenote: Does anyone know of a good vintage store in NKY/Cinci???

Moving on, I joined a modeling website years ago called ModelMayhem. I did a couple of fantastic shoots but got busy and then just forgot about it. Well, I updated my picture on there a few months back and my shit has been blowin up and I have had several photographers contact me and want to shoot (or I have found that they have done some cool concepts in the past and have approached them). But my best friends Self Doubt, Insecurity, and "You'retoofatandshorttomodel!" pop up and scream at me to not do any of it. (I'm a little embarassed to even be sharing this with you) I like to model, dance and sing but for some reason I am always ashamed to tell my friends. I can only think that I am afraid of their possible ridicule or criticism.. and it makes me sad because I would love to do all of those things more (esp dancing) but I fear that I have no support in this creative area of my life.. so again, if any of you ever want to go dancing or have impromptu photoshoots (I like to take other people's pics as well) then please lets get over ourselves and do it!

I know I'm ranting at this point so I'm going to stop but opinions, advice and love are always appreciated :)

Until next time.. Ciao!