All work and no play make Jessica a dull girl

can you name the movie? (obviously it doesn't have Jessica or girl in the line)

Anyways, what is meant is that I AM SOOOOOOOOOO SICK OF STUDYING!!!!!! I study for about 2-3 hours each night and everything is starting to blend together and I am getting so frustrated. I freakin pray I pass this damn thing because I do not wanna go through this again!

So our weekend was pretty interesting. We had pre-cana Saturday, which both of us had been dreading. It actually turned out better than we thought. We have to go back Saturday and although he won't blatantly admit it, I think Derek is looking forward to it. It was just a real eye-opener about certain things like the things we tend to fight about or things we need to work on as an individual or as a couple but most importantly it reminded us of why we are choosing to spend the rest of our lives together. Saturday night, we went over to Amanda and Zach's and sat around their firepit for a few hours. It was nice. They have the coolest cat in the world (well besides Josie lol!) but as I've said in a previous blog it is nice to have another couple to just chill with. I think Derek and Zach are realizing they have more in common and me and Amanda (I think) are slowly rebuilding our friendship. I know it will take time but with everything that we have been through together, I think we will get there. I know it won't be like it was before.. and I honestly hope its not. I want it to be better. I think we both deserve that.

N--E--WAYS.. Sunday I took Morgan to see HSM3. Wow. I love musicals and they have the tendency to be cheesy and over-the-top but the HSM series takes this to a completely different level. Needless to say, I'm glad Morgan enjoyed it.

There has been some drama lately with the whole wedding and family in general. I hope things get better.. it depresses me to think that it might not. And I think I've accepted most of it, but the child in me thinks I deserve better and refuses to completely give up on that. Part of me hopes I grow out of it, part of me thinks that the only bit of innocence or naivity I have left.

I love how others like to remind you of your past in uncomfortable situations with mixed company. Not cool. I just hope that someday those people will realize that I was ALWAYS a good girl; my decisions were not always good. And I realize that I shouldn't have to justify myself to ANYONE. The only thing I can do is continue being the person I am and hope that they will realize over time that I have changed. For the better. I am still not perfect. But then again.. who is??

Ciao

Bridesmaid Dresses

so its been about a week since I last blogged. Not too much has been going on. I've been sick the past few days.. just really bad stomach cramps. And I've been nonstop studying. I cannot tell you how happy I'll be when Nov 7 has come and gone.

So tonight is the fitting for the bridesmaid dresses at Wendy's. They're also letting me bring my dress in so I can try to find a veil and other accessories. Hopefully, all goes well.

Engagement Pics

so Sarah brought me the Engagement Pics this morning. I love them!!!! Steph Keller did such a wonderful job. They are quite a few humorous ones but I think thats the point. I'm too lazy to put some on here, but I think most of you are friends w me on Facebook and/or Myspace so they will be on both of those. Go take a look!!!

Hope everyone is having a great week!

Typical Tuesday

Hello fellow bloggers. Hope you all had a good weekend! We did.. Friday we went over to Jess and Danny's and ordered some Donatos and played with the baby. She is getting so big! And I swear she gets cuter and cuter!! Saturday we went to the Renaissance Festival. So much fun! We got there around noon and stayed til almost 4. We just walked around and just enjoyed the change in scenery. Derek threw some axes, I got to ride a camel, he ate some turkey legs and I actually drank Bud Light (scary!!) The vendors there are very cool. We had our family crests made. It has his and mine and then in the center our wedding date. I know its kinda weird since we're not married yet but we couldn't pass it up. We also found this really kickass artist named Nigel Sade. He does some creepy dark stuff similar to my Uncle Charlie. We have been looking for some pieces to put in the living room but just haven't found anything we were really passionate about until we met this guy. He had 3 pieces that were just amazing. They are so creepy but the meaning behind each is something I deal with on a daily basis and we like the fact that people will be talking about our art when they see it. If you're curious, check out his site: nigelsade.com and look under galleries and it is the 3 pieces under "Modern Attrocities"

Sunday we had our Engagement Pictures done with Steph Keller. She is a lot of fun to work with.. The cat was terrified of my grandparent's dog Lil Joe but she behaved wonderfully. Hopefully there are a lot of cute pics! We should have them in a couple of weeks. We ate dinner at his parents. They made spaghetti and meatballs. Yum!

That's been about it. Oh yea, and Derek might be getting another job. We'll see.

Ciao!

Its Officially October and Josie's Birthday

Yep, Josie is 1 year old today. She's like our kid so we got her a card and a present. Its a remote controlled mouse :) And we're making Tuna Helper just so she can lick the bottom of the can haha. Tonight should be fun!

Last night I went to BINGO with my grandma up at St Paul's. Neither of us had any luck but the fire alarm went off so we had a bit of excitement at least.

I think we are going to go to the Renaissance Festival this weekend. I haven't been since I was in the 7th grade and Derek hasn't been so I think it would be fun to do something different. We've been hanging out with different people lately (mainly Amanda and Zach) which is refreshing. Jess and Danny just have so much going on with Ady that its hard to get together with them and same with most of our other friends. So its been nice to have another couple to hang out with that doesn't "vag" out on you. (For those of you who don't know what "vag" means.. vag= telling someone you will be somewhere or hang out with them only later.. usually that day or even hours before, totally bailing out or just not even showing up with no call) It sucks to be "vag"ed on lol.

Anyways, we are having our engagement pictures taken this Sunday by Steph Keller at my grandparent's farm. Hopefully the weather will be nice.. I'm bringing Morgan along so we can take Josie and have a couple pics with our kitty cat ;) I have so much to do still with the wedding.. it can be a little stifling. But we have booked our honeymoon. We are going to Negril, Jamaica. Ya Mon! And I made the appointment for the girls to be fitted for the dresses.

Meanwhile I've been kinda studying for my exam. Its just so hard with everything else that is going on. Idk. I still have a month.. I guess I'll just have to buckle down here soon.