Looking Forward

Well, as some of you know, I've been going through a lot at work. I won't go into the issues on here but things started getting strained and tense when I started studying for the CPA exam. Once I passed, it just seemed like things were continually going downhill. Now, I'm the kind of person to let the little things go.. but they don't go competely, they get stored in this memory bank. So when 10-20 of these little things get added up in that same memory bank, I can't take it anymore and I tend to "explode". Which usually means I cry a lot and then feel bad for even bringing it up.. well, this happened a few weeks ago with my grandfather. So, needless to say the office has been this giant eggshell ever since. Well, I finally decided to talk to my doctor about things to see if I needed to go on any kind of anxiety or depression medication since I find myself getting so agitated and upset over all of this stuff. So, he actually sat there and talked to me for a good half hour about what's been going on and how I've reacted to everything. I've never had a doctor take the time to actual sit and listen to me. It was a pleasant experience. As a professional working in a similar partnership, he gave me some very useful advice. He did not put me on any meds, but suggested that I talk to a counselor or therapist just to have an outlet for when I do get upset with someone from work. Long story short, I am going to try my best to just look forward and not worry about this petty shit at work. I didn't study my ass off to just throw it all away on stupid drama! (He also gave me Chantix to help me quit smoking.. mine and Derek's goal date is after my birthday)

Anyways, besides all that crap, me and Derek had a pretty fantastic weekend. We finally cleaned our computer room, which has been put off for months; we saw some movies, ate some good food, enjoyed having our friends over at the house and caught up on some tv and laundry. It was wonderful! I love my husband and I love my family and friends dearly. Now, I just need to focus on making my job a pleasant experience as well. Wish me luck on that! haha

Until next time.. Ciao!